Butterflies

I've been sitting around all day watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Doctor Who, talking to the boy that confuses me more than UGGS and short shorts. I talk to him more than probably any other person in my life. I don't know ..how to deal.

I feel like if I got into a relationship with him now, then I'd just be rebounding him and I DON'T want that. I care about him too much to do that to him. But.. I feel butterflies when I'm around him. Is that weird? It sounds cheesy... I'm not big on cheese, but you know.

We talk about everything, we fight, we're there for each other...I compare him to my ex a lot. I guess what I like is...when we fight, he still talks to me. We try making up. My ex...never did that. We try to make it work, and are fine within 24 hours. I can't believe I'm saying this but...I was constantly upset with my ex because he never let me talk about how I felt. My friend lets me talk. He actually makes me ...because he knows it'll be better after.

And the thought that's been holding me back the most? What if it doesn't work out? I lose my best friend.... 

Peace&Love