Issues

I have a few issues I really want to talk out but I have a problem. These issues? They read my blog. So for all intents and purposes, I won't use their real names.

First, we have Jason. We have some issues together and that sucks, but the rest of the time, it rocks. He's nice and he makes me so happy... But when it's bad... I don't know how to make you understand how awful it can be. He doesn't physically beat me or anything. Just sometimes he'll snap or ...be rude/harsh.

Then we have Riley. Where do I even start? He's so ...amazing. Most of the time. He makes me crazy happy and we always have lots of fun together. I feel like I can talk to him about most things but...is that even enough? I know he wants more. It's so obvious but I don't know if it's something I can give him. And there's a side of him I rarely see, but it's there, and it scares me. A lot.

I care about both of them but... is that even enough? I don't think I LOVE either of them. Not real, true and pure love. I care about them a lot. With Riley I know I care deeply for him but I don't know if it's the "right" kind of caring.

What the hell did I get myself into?

Peace&Love